MAD WORLD.

Jay Park Is Classic.

2010-09-28T21:59:00.000-07:00

His awesomeness is something that can't be measured. Even in the simplest things, he always manage to shine. For me, Jay Park will always be classic. Now and forever.

- Macie Chavez, 2010

Jay Park.

Why do I ~~like~~ love him?

The first thing that I really noticed about Jay is his jaw-dropping bboy moves. It doesn't take an expert to see his passion for dancing. He has flawless moves that looks like it was effortlessly executed. Then I learned on later that the same boy has also mad rapping skills. It's one thing to be charismatic and insanely appealing, it's another to be also talented. Jay Park can prove to you, in more ways than one, that he is definitely more than just a pretty face.

And I also like his attitude. He treats his fans very warmly that it makes me feel so touched. Jay Park is respected and loved worldwide because he reciprocates the love and respect given to him by his adoring fans. In addition to that, before being an ex-member of 2PM, he has shown good leadership capabilities and has taken good care of his members. Making sure that each one of them are doing good on their own.

Lastly, I love his determination and strength. After everything that he has gone through, he is still hanging on. Still standing, tall and proud. I admire him for having the courage to gather himself together and continue his dreams. He put on a brave face and went through hell and back. It was heart-breaking for a fan like me to see him in that state. And all, we, Jaywalkers can do is to stand beside him in the fight and support him. He's so humble and caring that he'd rather start anew than to dig up the past which is chaotic and full of controversy. For the man who gives his all for his dreams and his fans, Jay Park my heart goes out to you.

How did Jay Park music influence you?

Jay Park made me love me RnB and hiphop more. That is the superficial part.
I really think that his music influenced my choice of songs. I try to look not only, on the quality of the songs but also on how the artist sings the song. Jay Park's music made me realize that songs that are sang from the heart has a deeper and heartfelt meaning. Like his song “Clouds” with Dumbfounded and Clara C., it did made me really feel better. I believed them when they said that it's not always rain, there'll be sunshine. We all know that this is very much true in Jay's case. He has reached the end of the tunnel and has seen the light.
Jay Park's music is not only heartfelt, it's also inspirational.

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Finger wear: Rings

2010-09-24T10:58:00.000-07:00

I was supposed to go to school for my 8:30 class but since my next class (at 1PM!) was cancelled, I decided to ditch school and just bum around. My Tita Andy will come home tomorrow fresh from Thailand. I think she got me awesome accessories. Well if she doesn’t, then she’s dead. NEW RINGS PLEASE. I might try collecting rings. I just want to focus on something, you know. I’ve read my previous blog post wherein I rant about not having a collection. I’d prolly settle for belts or rings. I’d do a post dedicated to both of them. But in the mean time, I’d do first a RING dedicated post. Oh, I want to post my rings but they are shy at the moment, maybe next post! :) (That’s me being lazy to get the camera. LOL.)

So I want to make a post about around five online shop that sells lovely rings.

First stop: Fred Flare

Fred flare is an online shop that has now a door store at Brooklyn. Though their apparel lines is quite on the so-so level, their accessories are really unique. Quirky and adorable. They’re simple but nevertheless, classic.

Actually found out about this store when my cousin linked me to it after she got her camera ring at $10. I have the same ring that I got from a bazaar for only P70! Take that! HAHA. But I really like the Chief captain face! CUTE.

Check out their other cute stuffs. Camera pouch, umbrella, mixtape usb & lego camera. I adore the camera pouch! Purddy! *cough* Birthday present *cough*

For detail lovers, there's SouZou Creations.

SouZou creations offers handmade jewelries! The details are so farking amazing! Seriously! I heard they were featured on various magazines for being a "floating ring".

I might as well ask for a handmade Happy Meal on my fingers! You just have to see the details! It’s insane. They have like beer designs, meal sets and all. The details are so precious.

And for a dose of punk, there is London’s Gate.

They specialize in Steampunk rings and dark-themed jewelries. The details of the steampunk rings are so beautiful.

Enough of the butterflies, it’s the bees time to shine! And I love the skeleton girl as well. Not your usual, skull head with bones design. My sister was flippin’ when she saw the collection of London’s Gate. Full of skulls. And she totally adores skulls. So everything is like an eye candy for her.

Feeling a bit retro? Don’t cha worry because we have Retro-a-go-go!

They offer cool and hip designs on their rings that showcase one’s individuality and retro lifestyle.

I love the robot designs in their collection! You can never get bored with those cute designs. And I also love their collection of belt buckles. The designs are seriously wicked!

And lastly, I can't forget people who are sucker for cute things. Like my sister at that. For cuteness overload, there’s Kuki shop.

Most of their stuffs are made of polymer clay and is patterned after sweets and pastries that even one of their collection is named Sweetness.

Their collection made me hungry. And everything is so pretty! The collection is mouth-watering. I love the cakes, cookies, ice cream and pretty much the whole collection. But well, aside from the cute creations, they recently added a Vintage collection. I like the Carousel necklace. Pretty!

The downside of this post is I want to have all of those rings. These are just a few of good online shops. Next time I'll include shops that sells awesome animal designs! I can dedicate a blog post solely for them! Seriously, they're everywhere! Fore people who are too lazy to find shops one by one, there's Etsy for you. Just put in rings and billions of rings online will appear. I would love to go on and on about rings. But I have to go now. Acads being pain in the you-know-what. Till then.

PS. I remember Jel the whole time I'm doing this. She also has an awesome online shop. Visit Fragile things now!

Sex Drive.

2010-09-23T20:20:00.000-07:00

I want to blog something before the day ends because I find peace(?), not really sure, in writing. Lately, it’s been crazy . When I say crazy, I mean hella crazy. To my Ninang Ganda who will be one of my favorite aunts forever: I love you forever. The progressing lovelife of my friends didn’t help me a bit. But yeah.

On a lighter note, I want my comeback blog to be happy still. So I’ll rant about the movie I’ve seen just a little while ago. It’s Sex Drive, a 2008 movie. Plot taken from IMDB:

Ian is a high school senior in suburban Chicago, plagued by being a virgin. Online he's inflated his resume, met Ms. Tasty, and agreed to drive to Knoxville where she promises sex. He steals his homophobic, macho brother's GTO, and, with his two best friends, Lance and Felicia, heads south. Every young woman who meets Lance, including Felicia, is attracted to him, even though he's an uncaring hound. Ian, on the other hand, is a decent guy who wouldn't mind if his friendship with Felicia became a romance. By the time they get to Knoxville, they have encountered a jealous boyfriend, a menacing hitchhiker, jail birds, carjackers, an Amish community, and Ian's better judgment

The movie made me laugh so hard and not to mention, Josh Zuckerman is also a cutie. Have you seen him in glasses? Sheesh, how come nobody gives the geeky/nerdy boy a second glance.

I wanna be like Ian in some ways though. I want to do something crazy while I’m still in college. I want to have a list. I’m working on it right now. Get drunk like hell, is for sure included in the list. That’s not really crazy for others but it’s something that I’ll do out of my character. Though I’ve been itching to know what’s my alcohol limit since I can remember.

And internet identity. I don’t know if it’s just me but I can’t really be like other people and assume another identity. I mean, I can’t use the anonymity to my advantage. I chat at omegle sometimes just to kill time. Friends tell me, I should assume another identity like a sexy fox or even a nerdy girl. I always end up talking about my life story to a total stranger, uncensored and unedited version. It’s easier to talk to strangers at time, you know.

And I love the confession part. It’s not your typical I-realized-I-love-you thing or even the I-loved-you-all-along line.

Felicia: Why can’t you say it first?

Ian: I asked you first. But fine. *smiles* I know you love me.

Felicia: I know you love me too.

*insert graphic of the torrid kissing scene here*

I find it sweet actually. Sometimes, what is important is you know how each other feels. Cheesy but yeah, true.

In the mean time, I have yet to learn how to drive.

Ciao now people!

PS. Sorry if my post is a bit chaotic. I’m getting rusty at blogging. Start from zero again :)

Sasha Fierce.

2009-12-21T07:10:00.000-08:00

4 more days and it’s already Christmas. That was fast. I downloaded a couple of Christmas songs to listen in my mp4. And it’s given that my favorite x-mas song would be from my favorite girl group: Destiny’s Child.

I remembered Phen telling me that she doesn’t know what I found in Beyonce. For those who don’t know yet, Beyonce just happens to be my idol-slash-hero.

Thinking about it, I now know the definite reason why I have her as a role model.

She’s the epitome of what I wanted to be.
She’s beautiful. Not goddess beautiful but enough to break a couple of necks.
She’s talented.
She’s a soulful singer and my family knows how I badly wanted to be an RnB singer. If double platinum albums and sold out concerts weren’t enough proof of how great she is then maybe her grammy’s and other awards should do the talking.
She’s a dancer and an actress. Plus she has her own clothing line. How hot is that?

And one of the important things on why I like her, she isn’t like other trashy Hollywood stars. She doesn’t do drugs and is rarely seen w/ alcohol.

She is a sweet and caring person who donates millions to charities.
And well you know, a rapper mogul husband who adores and spoils you to death couldn’t make life any better.
That’s Beyonce for you. Hopefully by ten years I’ll be able to be even like half of what she has achieved. I’d be 27 by then.

Caught in the middle.

2009-12-12T03:47:00.000-08:00

I didn't think that it would go this far. I feel really bad. Being caught in the middle and all.
Frankly speaking, I was left out. How can it happen that my radar didn't pick all of these things.

One thing that I'm thankful for, people actually trust me enough to rant to me their situations, worries and frustrations. For that, I am deeply moved.

Thank you fever and flu, because of you I was detached from the world. Now, I need a lot of catching up to do: acads, orgs, friends and well Kstuffs.

I maybe like this but I'm not shallow or insensitive. I feel it too.

Thank you to my future brother-in-law (even though he doesn't know. HAHA) for making me feel better around 3 days ago. He even accompanied me for 3 hours straight just so I wouldn't feel alone. Surprisingly, he understands my situation.

Macie: Uy shet. Sorry ah. Nag-rarant ako sa'yo.
Brother-in-law: Okay lang. Naiintindihan ko naman yung sitwasyon mo.

Lalalala~
Ulzzang Club. Blockmates. LD loves. Le Chat. Baby Tonski. Phendot. I miss you all. Let's have a date sometime and let loose. I need to destress.

Shit. Sorry for the emo-ness.

Better than ever.

2009-12-06T06:56:00.000-08:00

After about almost 3 days in bed. I feel better now. Thank God. I won’t talk about how sick I was because I want a happy post today :)

I missed my NET. I won’t need to sneak around just for an hour or two of net anymore. Mommy already allowed me to use it since I’m all better now.

I need to cram a lot of things though. UP Arirang stuffs, AdCore stuffs, Newscast prod and an essay. I’m worried and nervous but I think I can do it!

I just found out that I lost my paper in BC104 along w/ my clipboard! Hopefully, Ma’am Justiniani will understand.

I still need to do my Christmas shopping. I still haven’t prepared my gifts. I’m in need of money right now. Mommy gave me this idea of selling some of my k-pop CD or perfumes. K-pop cd idea is already scrapped out. I’m thinking of selling some of my perfumes though. Mom said that she regrets that she didn’t let me collect anything. Something that I can focus on, because it resulted to me having a lot of the things. She believes that I tend to buy everything because I don’t focus on collecting a single thing. I personally don’t think so.

I re-organized my perfumes. These are the perfumes that I’m thinking of letting go/ I think I can let go. It’s not yet sure though.

Two Bath and Body Works perfume, Two Love spell Victoria secret (one of them is what I’m using so it’s almost half-filled, it’s because I wasn’t able to locate the new one ASAP for a pic. Haha), Estee Lauder Pleasures, Calvin Klein Eternity and imported Soft Musk.

Sick.

2009-12-02T06:32:00.000-08:00

Forced myself to be up today. Still a bit sick but I’m better now. Mom broke my favorite purple mug. It made my headache even worse.

I missed two GA today. I’d probably get an earful from both orgs. I’m sick and such a losarr.

The only thing that made me smile today is while browsing lookbook I saw girl crush (the photographer) and semi-boy crush (dancer).

Spoiled.

2009-12-01T07:43:00.000-08:00

My favorite Uncle in the States e-mailed me a while ago saying that the baby was already delivered! Yehey! I welcome Mary Margaret to the family! She’s gonna be an awesome person LIKE ME ‘cause she also has a Mary on her name. HAHA.

To be honest, at first I wasn’t really excited to see the baby. I was thinking that maybe if they had a new baby then they won’t spoil me anymore. I know. I admit. I’m a selfish like that.

I won’t say I’m a spoiled brat because we’re not that rich for my parents to spoil me that much to start with. I maybe a bit spoiled. But I don’t think I’m a brat. My parents try to give me what I want. That happens, fortunately, most of the time. They don’t give it for free though. They want a high grades, a chore done or something like that. It started when I was in kindergarten, stickers for every quiz I got a perfect score :))

My relatives is a different story. They are the ones who totally spoiled me. My mom is the youngest female in her family. She is the 9th child out of the ten kids. My dad, on the other hand, is the eldest in the family. So what happened is that I became the baby in my mother’s side and the first grandchild in my father’s side. The person who spoiled me the most is my grandmother in my mother’s side which I fondly calls “Lola Ma”. She’s the reason why I have a soft spot for old people. It’s too bad that she died when I was in grade 4.

The one thing I love about my grandmother is her collection of jewelries. She has different sets complete with brooches. I wanna grow up as elegant as her. Just too bad that our ancestral house in Laguna was robbed few years ago resulting to a loss of around a million or two (I’m not really sure) for the jewelries taken. And I was to inherit those jewelry dammmit!

Anyways, I share more now and not that selfish anymore. I learn things too.

Just a random thing before I end my post, my aunt said that me and my sister looks different. That’s a first and I really like it. I mean I think we don’t really look alike. Don’t you think so?

Unproductive Mondays.

2009-11-30T04:58:00.000-08:00

Okay, it is proven again and again that my Mondays are unproductive. And God, Soc Sci II reading piled up. I HATE SOC SCI II. Damn it. Anyways, I was browsing through some fashion blogs today and was linked to Chinese Fashion Week 2010. And I liked DGVI, casual street vibe. I didn’t even know there’s a brand named DGVI. Cute street tough look with neon colors. I’m kinda lost on their theme though. Animal prints? Female Sailor look? I don't know, they seem to be assorted. Oh well, toodles! I need to cram my readings now. ♥♥♥

Some eye candy from DGVI fashion show in China, my picture spam is inspired by friend Jellurmi's blog post.

Image credits goes here.

Quogan.

2009-11-29T23:42:00.000-08:00

My Mom and Dad are both out-of -town for about 3 days already. That's the first time that BOTH of them are out. We don’t have a maid. Our last maid was when I was in 3rd year high school. Anyways, back to the issue. We basically need to fend for ourselves for these past few days. And boy, I didn’t accomplish anything lately. I slacked off. I slept at around 4 am and I just surf the net while watching the TV. It made me think of where I could possibly be if I continue to live like this. No restrictions, no one scolding me and just simply doing whatever I want. Hopefully they’ll be back tomorrow evening.

I watched some re-runs of shows. I feel like I’m back on my teeny bopper days. I watched Nickelodeon’s Zoey 101 and Disney Channel’s Hannah Montana, Wizard of Waverly Place and Jonas Brothers. I loved Zoey 101 re-runs the most. I even looked for my old downloads of the last Season and watched them on my laptop. It’s NOT because I love Jamie Lynn Spears. Eww, she’s not exactly a role model to teens after getting pregnant at 16.

Anyways, I love Mathew Underwoods and Erin Sanders. Logan and Quinn forever. They share the cutest lines ever. And they still act chummy even off-cam. I wish they’d just date.

Logan: I’m embarrassed to be dating you.
Quinn: Really?
Logan: Yes. I can’t believe you made me say that.
Quinn: I’m so thrilled that you said that, I’m embarrassed to be dating you too.

Quinn: You are so irritating sometimes. Tcchhh. *Angry face*
Logan: Wanna go makeout? *eyebrows wriggling*
Quinn: *suddenly smiles* Yeah. Hahaha.

Plus Quinn is just another of my favorite geeks. I love nerds/geeks and just brainy people in their eyeglasses. I dunno.

That's what you want? A brainless twerlup wearing a shirt that wouldn't fit an eight year old boy? -- Quinn

Couch potato day.

2009-11-28T02:45:00.000-08:00

Oh-kay. Today is semi good and bad. I feel bad because I had a major headache. My sister says that it’s because of my flu. I just want to sleep all day. But my sister insisted that I get on the couch and join her. Good thing that Star Movies was having some sort of X-Men maratahon. I love X-men. I like Night Crawler and Kitty on the X-men evolution cartoons but I love Rogue and Mr. Iceman Bobby Drake in the movie.

I just found out that Bobby Drake’s bro is the same guy as Sebastian Hasting from the movie She’s the Man. That is so cool. I mean I didn’t recognize it until now. Maybe it’s because I don’t pay that much attention to him. I never really liked his character in both movies.

After the X-Men marathon in Star Movies, they showed Penelope. I really loved the movie. I was really touched that I cried at the end. ~~They don’t even have a kissing scene and I still love it! OMG, that’s really first for a girl who love kisses at the end of the story. It’s still a cute modern day fairytale movie.~~ I take that back. I just downloaded the movie 'cause I super love it and saw that there's a kissing scene. I love it. It completed my day. James McAvoy is love.

Here’s the plot taken from yahoo movies:

A modern day romantic tale about a young girl's inspiring journey, a mysterious family secret and the power of love. With all odds against her, in order for Penelope to break the family curse, she must find true love with "one of her own kind." The warm and funny adventure leads her to realize the most important life lesson, "I like myself the way I am."

Penelope Wilhern, born to wealthy socialites, is afflicted by the Wilhern spell that can only be broken when she finds love. Hidden away in her family's estate, the lonely girl meets a string of suitors in her parent's futile attempt to break the curse. Each eligible bachelor is enamored with Penelope and her sizable dowry... until her curse is revealed. Lemon, a mischievous and eager tabloid reporter wants a photograph of the mysterious Penelope and hires Max to pose as a prospective suitor to get the shot.

The handsome down-on-his luck gambler finds he falling for Penelope, but not wanting to disappoint her or to expose his surreptitious ways, he decides to disappear. Fed up by his latest betrayal and determined to live life on her own terms, Penelope breaks free from her family and ventures into the world alone. She finds adventure and Annie, her first friend and becomes the person she was meant to be.

And yes, I recognized yet another male star. I recognized it right away because I loved his character. He’s James McAvoy. I really loved him in Narnia as Mr. Tumnus and loved him even more in Penelope.

Semi-over it.

2009-11-27T16:20:00.000-08:00

I had two class today. 104 and 130. I was watching some subbed videos and doing some org stuffs so I was able to complete my paper for 130 at about 4 in the morning.
My sister just informed me that she was at the airport with MOM yesterday to see a glimpse of Shinee. I was speechless. She didn't even tell me that she was going there.

You know, I was really sad that I wasn't able to go to the concert. But thinking about it, I didn't really do much to get a ticket. I didn't even go to NBN station which is so near UP. For the record, I'm also a Sky Cable subscriber. Oh well, I'm semi-over it. Maybe it wasn't for me. Just next time, don't do free concerts. I hate free concerts. There's always scarcity of tickets. And the first come first serve basis. Paying is still the best, guaranteed seats of your choice :))

So distract myself, I went to the movies with Ivy and Bryan. It really happened so fast. Next thing I know, I was watching the movie.

Ivy: Manonood kami Ninja Assassin.

Macie: Kailan? Parang gusto ko rin.

Ivy: Ngayon na. Paalis na kami Sama ka?

Macie: As in ngayon na? *thinks for a second* Okay. Sama ako.

Ninja assassin is not a movie for people with light stomachs. 85% of the movie is action and BLOOD. 15% is for the dialogue. Rain was not spazz worthy in the movie. But oh my god, Lee Joon is. He acted so well. Lee Joon FTW! Lee Joon gets to kiss a girl while Rain didn't. ROFL. Next time Rain, next time.

Preparation.

2009-11-24T04:51:00.000-08:00

Today wasn't exactly a good day for me.
I prepared a lot for our Soc Sci report but we didn't get the chance to report it. We had a Comm3 zurprise quiz today. And you'll get a .02 deduction in the final grade if you get 15 below on the 30 item test. I wasn't really sure if I'll pass. Please, let me pass.

I'm totally beat but I still decided to photoshop some pictures and post them. I'm also currently under the process of renovating my blogs both in wordpress and in blogspot.
BTW, I decided to post a some sort of pictures for the day just because I hate bland post.

I seriously need a diet.

monday blues.

2009-11-23T22:35:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the rushed posts. I will try to include pics, videos and what's nots next time.

Anyway, I really don't know what's wrong with my mondays. It's always unproductive. I went to my dentist today. He told me to always put my rubber bands on my braces so that I can get them out already. But frankly speaking, I love my braces! Braces makes beautiful faces. I don't know, it kinda grew on me already. I mean I have it for almost 6 years now.

And yes, I have was supposed to download the cuts of my favorite artists perf on MAMA but I decided to just download the whole show and get it over and done with. So now, hello 3GB download. It was supposed to be a 10 GB download but I saw a smaller version, thank god!

Sandara made me smile today. Family outing episode was out yesterday. It was okay. Her corndog dance made me laugh. I find it cute though.

I was checking chictopia and found some pitures of Daul Kim. Wow, I missed her already. She's one of my favorite models. I mean, she's twenty, fab, crazily beautiful and a korean! I just wished she's happy wherever she is right now. RIP. You will be missed.

New Moon.

2009-11-21T23:49:00.000-08:00

We watched New Moon today. We were supposed to watch it at Eastwood but there has been a change of plans. We watched it in Trinoma instead.

New moon was better compared to twilight. I'm a Team Jacob member and I was really happy on his screentime and how he acted. I was rooting for Steven Strait as Jacob Black as first but maaan, I think Taylor was better and not to mention hotter. Major nosebleed. There was an abs parade that I absolutely love. Werewolves are hotter than vampires.

I bought new skinny and makeup afterwards. New skinny just for the heck of it and new makeup because I need it. I felt bad using my mom's makeup. They're quite expensive and I don't think it's okay if I use it when I don't really appreciate it's worth. So I bought cheaper ones. Goodbye, Estee Lauder and Max and say hello to Maybelline. They're worth it and I think that the makeup suits me better.

Okay so my dad sent me home because I wanted to catch MAMA on TV while the rest of my family went to catch the last full show for 2012. And yes, I deeply regret it.
I was so frustrated. I can't find Channel V! I wasn't even sure if we're Sky Cable subscribers. So in short, I wasn't able to watch it on TV. I'll just download the whole show.
Congrats to the Winners. YGfam+2PM+TVXQ = LOVE <33.>

Newscast okay.

2009-11-19T22:37:00.000-08:00

I'm looking for a blazer for my newscast tomorrow. My clothes is strewn all over my room. I just found out that I have about 3 bags of brand new clothes. Thanks to my unorganized self, I just saw them now. WOOOH. I feel bad after seeing them. I should have saved my money and I should have not splurged on my sembreak shopping. Oh well.

I'm downloading G-dragon's KJE subbed videos right now. I haven't fan girl much today. I'm thinking of asking my friend to buy me Big Bang planner for 2010 when she goes to Korea this December. Thanks to the indecisive me, I won't join her trip to Korea. I feel bad about it. I wanna watch the concert! I promise to watch their concert next time maybe in Japan. Thank you Mommy for being so understanding about my fan-girling <33.

Prod love.

2009-11-18T23:56:00.000-08:00

My only class today is BC104. And man, we got a taste of how a prod actually works. It was craaaazy I tell you. Crazy but fun. I get to handle the camera. It's not so bad once you get a hang of it.

I'm just worried about the makeup thing. I don't like makeup but it's inevitable not to use it in my field. Guess, I have to practice at home.
I will hit the sack in a while, I have a major headache since early this afternoon.

Nothing much.

2009-11-17T23:15:00.000-08:00

I just woke up and had my dinner. I really feel so lazy to do my news for tomorrow. Maybe the lazy feeling has something to do with my headache. I don't really know. It's a good thing that I have gathered already materials and sources for my news so it's much easier to start it.

My day was the usual, same ol' same ol'. A little fun fact before I end my entry. I felt like a modern day Cinderella today. My belt suddenly loosened and I didn't notice it until this cute guy handed them over to me. Now that was something. My friend was telling me that I should have asked for his number or something. I was never good in asking those so yeah. Hopefully I'll see him again :)

Aristotle shiznits.

2009-11-16T23:38:00.000-08:00

I hate you Soc Sci II. I can't understand my readings and I get more and more frustrated each time I read it once more. Maybe I'm not giving my full attention to it while reading it. Oh well, I guess no more sleep for me today and cram for my class tomorrow.

The only thing that excites me to go to school tomorrow is Comm3! I love my class. I love Sir De Pano, he's such an eloquent speaker. He also reminds me of my favorite speech teacher back in high school.

Sunday night.

2009-11-15T22:17:00.000-08:00

Hey-ho. I'm back on blogging since I was assigned to make a journal for my BC104 class.
Let me fill you up on what happened during my absence on the blogging world.
I basically graduated from high school. I got into the University of the Philippines. I'm now a Broadcast Communication student. I'm happy with my life as of the moment. I'm doing good and still very much in love with the South Korean Culture.

Anyways back to my diary-ish entry.It's another unproductive day for me.I didn't finish anything at all. My readings are still there untouched. I will try to start my BC104 readings before I go to sleep and hopefully finish my Soc Sci II readings by tomorrow morning.

I haven't had my fill of korean dose today. Blame it on sleeping, lazing around and reading this incredibly good fan fiction. I maybe biased in that sense because I can relate to it. Falling in love with a bassist of a famous band. I was like "that's screams macie". Story of me and my goat. I just saw my twitter and it says that Family outing episode with Sandara and UEE is alreay out! I need to watch it 'cause Sandara Park is there. Go Dara! I'm excited to see her quirky and lovable side again.

And Oh, Pacquiao won by the way. I wasn't really surprised since I was expecting it. The online world was really excited and the social networking sites kept me updated on the match even though, frankly speaking, I didn't care much. But STILL, Filipino pride baby!

christmas

2007-12-27T22:22:00.000-08:00

I’m so freaking exhausted.
Attending and hosting parties is really exhausting.
What’s worst I haven’t been online for what? like 4 days?
Even though I expected it. I still feel sad.
Good thing it went back to normal.
I watched It started with a kiss II ep 1 there.
ISWAK is so cute.
But dang I was surprised at the bed scene.
I was like “gbuygoisu! Wth?! For real?!!”
It’s not really a bed scene w/c shows something though XD
I’m gonna watch ep 2 later.

As usual I didn’t forget camwhoring session.
I like what wore there.

And OMG I saw my new niece. She was like a doll.
So cute. Too bad I forgot to take a pic of her.

And after that went to my other grandma.
We killed time by holding movie marathon.
Which I was against because they wanna watch
freaking horror movies. And I’m a self confessed scaredy-cat.

The memorable ones.
They made me watch EXORCIST!
Damn man. It’s so arrrgh.
Creepy man!
And GOTHIKA. My cousins seriously had a beating.
I just like THE BRIDGE TO TERABITHIA.
It was sad. The girl died but I like it.
LITTLE MANHATTAN.
Finally! I got the chance to finish the WHOLE movie.
I can’t seem to finish it for some reasons before.
The boy is so darn funny. He was like:
“She’s totally my type. Wait. I didn’t even know I had a type”.
LOL.

My cousins totally loved the marathon I hold for them.
What else? KOREAN MARATHON.
Rewatching of some Korean dramas.
And catching up with pops in seoul.
They so drooled over TVXQ and FT Island.
My cosuins were like major Jaejoong lovers.
They were like shrieking when watching.
You’re my Miracle vid.
They don’t even know who he is. geesh T.T
And I got all smiles when Until You Return was shown.
And won bin got “oohs and ahhs”
From my cousins.
And they’re like freaking morons.
Laughing at Super junior vid.
I don’t even know what’s funny.
I love MARRY ME vid.
What so funny about that vid?
My retarted cousins!

All in all. I had fun this Christmas.
Jan oppa. Get well soon.
Geesh. I thought you just got drunk. Mianhe.
I didn't realize you were actually sick. XD

PS: NO one still knows that I re-opened my blogspot. XD

x-mas party

2007-12-21T22:10:00.000-08:00

Okay.
it's our christmas party.
and as always my classmates were eager to see what I'm going to wear.
i surprised them this year by wearing an EMO-ish outfit.
They're used to seeng me in my trendy and girlish outfits.
BUT NEVER AN EMO. it's because I was never an EMO.
but it doesn't hurt to dress up like that for a day right?
and you guessed it.
they loved it. :)

I received a LOT of gifts :)
Thanks to my beloved friends.
Oh yeah. our class got a personalized pin.

It just sucks that I wasn't able to give each one of them.
I gave out about 20 gifts for my friends.
And also to the other people in the other year levels.

THANK YOU.
I LOVE YOU GUYS.

My gifts are mostly accessories.
bracelets. bangles. necklaces. phone accesories.
they all knew me very well. the girly girl fashionista.
and for that I LOVE YOU AGAIN GUYS.

Ooh and special mention to ROSS for the sushi's.
Yummy!

After the x-mas party. we headed to the mall.
TRINOMA.
We were supposed to watch a movie.
But we hit the arcades instead. TIMEZONE.
Phen got hyped up when she saw the dancing machine.
(not the dance revo, the one for hands.)
and yes me and jenil made fool of ourselves playing those.
good thing it's a 2-player game.
we passed each level only because of phen.
she was class A and we were class D. crap.

And then we played basketball.
phen got crazy and went to play the kiddie basketball.
dang. she's crazy. and most importantly.
she's not our friend. haha.

and it's okay though.
because i played something childish too. haha.
the one wherein you need to put out fire.
you have a hose-like shooter.
(it shoots out real water by the way)
and aim for the circles in the post.
i got 99. haha. XD

and then we played HOUSE of the DEAD.
i love killing those monsters.
my friends were impressed.
up until now.they didn't know I was good at those.
those things w/c involves guns.
I perfectly remember that I instucted phen to take pictures.
But she was busy staring at the dead monsters on the screen.
to do so.
curse her. LOL.

and then we decided to go eat at last.
I was like "You can see Mister Donut over there."
"Donut and coffee seems good, right?"
And they were like "Do you want to eat @ Mister Donut?"
I got embarassed by being to obvious. LOL.
So I just said NO.We decided to eat @ McDonalds.
I just drank float. then afterwards craved for ice cream.

IT WAS NICE NICE THOUGH.

Failed.

2007-12-19T04:33:00.000-08:00

Okay. I was quite on the mood to go to forums yesterday.
I even decided to change all my siggies for different forums.
And guess what because of that I failed my exams today. LOL.
The papers are not yet checked but I should know by now.
on what the results would be.

YOO BIN. my lovely rapper. gosh we're performing the next day.
And I'm thinking of rapping.
It's something new for my whole class to hear.
I was always the R&B singer but never the sexy rapper.
So yeah. We'd be remixing either jingle bell rock or winter wonderland.
And if we could practice a little bit.
Maybe perform the addictive Tell Me dance.

BIG BANG. Nothing much. i just drooled over G-dragon's picture as usual.

I'm super excited for their english album.

coming up next month. something to look forward to.

CRAP. someone said bad things about our school paper.

when most of the people who saw it said that it was good.

I so hate her!

jaejin's b-day.

2007-12-17T17:58:00.000-08:00

To my hubby: LEE JAEJIN

Happy birthday!
I wish you all the best for your b-day.
May you be happy and may all your projects be successful.

I LOVE YOU OPPA :)

moody.

2007-12-16T03:43:00.000-08:00

RANDOM POST.

1. I’m definitely loving KANGTA’s rendition of winter wonderland. I so like it. I also like Hyun Jin’s rendition of Have yourself a merry little X-mas. It’s been palying on the player for a while. At least my mom appreciates it. She said it’s okay to be played non-stop since it’s in English language. Haha.

2. And then. And then. There’s Henry.
Henry Lau.
I’m definitely going crazy over this guy. I don’t know why.
I find him HOT in Don’t Don MV but I’m not crazy over him back then.
I saw vids of him in youtube and dang. That’s when I got crazy over him.
When he plays it’s so HOT. And it’s a whole new story when he dances.

3. And I have to say I've been really lazy these past few days.
I'm on ep 14 on WHY WHY LOVE.
stuck on it for about a week.
i really didn't like how it became quite corny.
BUT. I must say that YUKAN CLUB is good.and i love that show.
Although I'm also stuck with ep 7. I'm going to continue it.
Bido-sama is love.♥

BEAT.

2007-12-15T22:32:00.000-08:00

Okay I'm totally beat.

Yesterday we went to an orphanage. I was getting dizzy over the long trip and I was being the random girl in the car. Saying random things and noticin people's every move. I suddenly blurted out "This is just the one of the times when you miss having a boyfriend. Someone to lean to or even play your hands with". And the poor couples in the bus suddenly got embarassed. LOL. Don't blame me. I was stating a truth back there. Haha.

We waited for the other year levels on the orphanage. We managed to kill time by playing in the playground. We look really stupid in my opinion. We were running, going to the slides, pushing each other in the swing, doing the stuffs that a KID would too. I even rode on a small chicken back there. But I didn't care at that moment, I was happy. We were like a bunch of kids that was taken to a playground for the first time.

When we started the program, I was nervous. "What if the children doesn't like the gifts? the toys? the food? the games?". Good thing everything turned out great.

I won't forget this little girl taht I was feeding. She look adorable. And she looks like a korean. She practically eats everything that I shoved into her mouth! It was cute :)

We found out that some of them are brothers and sisters. I was thinking that how come there are parents that would rather left their children in the orphanage rather than to take care of them. It was so sad. The children's laughters and smile is all worth our effort.

i'm back.

2007-12-11T02:16:00.000-08:00

I'M BACK FOR GOOD!

You read that right. I'm back for good. After my long hiatus, I decided to re-open my abadoned blogspot account. Because:

1. I think that I express my feelings here better. I really mean it when I said BETTER.

2. My multiply site is invaded with koreans. Sometimes, I even think that I post in multiply just to share infos and pictures about my favorite korean stars. And also to store my gazillion pictures.

3. This is where I really started everything out. My confessions. My story. My life.

FAKERS? PRETENDERS? Oh. Actually they're my so-called FRIENDS.

I'm sorry for being a selfish. Instead of telling you the things that I've missed posting, I'm telling you my frustrations, releasing my anger, and bashing my so-called friends.

I don't know how it started. I don't know where, I don't know why and most importantly, I don't know when it started. It all just happened.

Through the years, I believed that I maintained a good relationship with ALL my classmates. That's why up until now, I still haven't had a bestfriend. I have my close friends but not a bestfriend. I don't actually belong to a special group. Fine. I do belong to a special group but the thing is I could go from one group of friends to another without the feeling of being an outcast. It's just me. And that's how things work for me.

Actually, I really don't want to say anything anymore. I just wish they could tell it all to my face. Now, they all keep on talking behind my back. I curse them for being so freaking plastic.

Basically that's it. I HATE THEM.

EH??!..

2007-05-23T16:16:00.000-07:00

--[[turning japanese]]--

I just want to say that I'm currently going crazy over japanese stuffs. From foods to manga. I mean they're all so unique and nice to look at! Everything is so kawaii! I first fell in love with it when I watched a couple of japanese series and movies. I kinda got the habit of using Japanese words at home and their expression "EH" [title of my post]. Now, I'm loving the animes. ♥

--[[my desktop]]--

I constantly keep on changing my desktop theme since the time I learned how to customize them. It's the first desktop theme that lasted for almost 2 weeks already! It's simple but I never get tired of it! The wallpaper shows a geisha with a bare back. And my player skin shows a skateboard with an anime-like girl on it! I'm totally loving it!

--[[alice academy]]--

I finally got my chance to finish it! It was uploaded up to 24 ep only so I have to wait for the last 2 ep. Anyways, I'm quite disappointed at the ending because their Ruka-Mikan-Natsume love story has no development. I just read the manga. Actually the chapter summaries only in English. I know where to get the manga scans but sadly the words are in japanese so I can't understand them. I just first read the summaries and downloaded the scans so I have the clearer picture of what's going on. I learned from the manga that the anime is actually editing some parts of it. Like the kissing scene stuff and Natsume's sister.**pout** The season 2 is already out in Japan and it's due to be shown here in about 2008. awh! so sad! =( Anyway some of the scanned pics.. more pics at my multiply account.

--[[death note]]--

After a long debate with myself of whether I'll watch this series or not, I finally got the courage to watch it. Courage? YES! Actually, I'm a scaredy-cat. I get scared easily even at those what they called "lame" horror movies. And when I looked at the summary of death note. I saw something about death gods, deaths, killers and stuff like that. But then since everybody is going crazy about it. I decided to watch it. No regrets at all!It was so worth my time. I love how the battle between the two genuises unfold. All those planned deaths. They're so witty! Currently on Chapter 31 and still waiting for the other chapters to be uploaded. I also finished the two movie adaptation about it. But I must say that the anime is better [although there are some chapters that are boring to death]. I love Yagami Light in the anime but L in the movie.

--[[sushi and yakisoba]]--

I don't exactly know how it happened. It just happened! I want to eat them more often na kasi.

--[[Which Star are You From, Torte Cake, Dino Imperial]]--

They are the things that I could say not related directly to Japanese that I'm loving this month! WHich Star ia a Korean drama starring Kim Rae Won of Attic Cat, My little Bride etc. And the girl, I actually forgot her name. I don't like her kasi. She's the love rival of Kim Sam Soon. I felt that she used the fact that she is sick to get things in her own way. But the story seems nice and I found out that it's really good. I'm currently on Ep 4 and I'm loving it more. Anyways I love how Kim Rae Won dress. It spells H-O-T. Torte Cake, I buy this everyday so actually I'm kinsa getting tired of its very sweet taste so I'm planning to change to squid calamares. Haha. And lastly, Dino Imperial. It's as simply as "What's not to love about him?".♥

--- I'm a barbie girl in a barbie world! ♥ ---

2007-05-09T02:33:00.000-07:00

--=credits to Marge♥.. gling sa multiply nia 'to.. i was intrigued on how girly girl I was.. haha..=--

[] You own over 10 bottles of nail polish
[x] You own a designer purse
[] You own perfume that cost over $60
[x] You had/have fake nails
[x] You have more hair/body products than you can use
[ ]Your pet is a chihuahua/ Pomeranian/ Yorkshire Terrier/ Siamese/ shih-tzu
[ ] You have clothes/shoes/accessories for your pet
[] You have enough clothes to cover an entire refugee camp.
[x]You have enough pictures to create your own wallpaper.
[x] A pink comforter, carpeting, walls or sheets.
Total: 5

What can I say: Yep.. I don't own 10 bottles of nail polish.. Only 3.. I've had fake nails when I was like in Grade 5.. My perfume only costs at list $55 only not $60.. I obviously don't like animals.. I have many clothes but not enough for a refugee camp.. haha.. do i look like i own a mall??.. ^_~

Do you:
[] Spend more time at the mall than you do at home/work
[ ] Have a hair color that is not your natural color
[x] Have "blonde moments" at least once a day
[x] Buy stuff because it's awesome and then never wear it/use it
[x] Constantly keep your phone at your side
[x] Dance around in your room when nobody else is home
[ ] Have a name for your car
[x] Know what celebrity is dating who and who broke up this week
[] Refuse to go out in public without makeup
[x]refer to be called "princess"
Total so far : 11

What can I say: I spend more time with my computer!.. haha.. Yep.. sometimes I buy things that I never got a chance to use.. AGAIN.. no chance of being able to use them.. Like now, I still have at list 3 pairs of unused Happy feet sandals.. I dance when nobody is around ♥.. haha.. And lastly, I don't put make-up because I don't know how to use them..

DO YOU ADORE:
[x] Make up (adore it ya,use it no)
[x] Jewelry
[x] Mirrors
[x] Chick flicks
[x] Shoes
[x] Rainbows
[ ] Unicorns
[ ] Disney Movies
[x] Candles
[x] Flowers
[x] Stuffed Animals
[x] Purses
Total so far: 20

What I can say: You guessed it.. I'm a hopeless romantic.. I'm a sucker for simple things like flowers.. chocolates.. happy endings..♥♥♥

DO YOU SHOP AT:
[ ] Coach
[] Forever 21
[x] Victoria's Secret
[x] Guess
[x ] Claire's
[ ] Express
[ ] Delias
[] MAC
[x] Sephora
[x] Bebe
Total so far: 25

What I can say: I don't usually go to shops indicated above.. My favorite shop though is GAP!..

DO YOU SAY:
[x] Biatch
[x] Whatever
[x] Oh my gosh/god/goodness
[x] Hun
[ ] Fugly
[x] That's hot
[] Dunzo
[x] Darling
[ ] Psh
[x] Cutie
[x] Hottie
[ ] Skank
[x] totally
[x] for sure
[x] Fabulous
Total So Far: 36

What I can say: I'm a self confessed talkaholic.. I talk a lot.. And I adapt my expressions on the chick flicks that I have watched.. that explains why there are so many X marks there..

Do You Read:
[x] Cosmopolitan
[x ] Glamour
[] Marie Claire
[x] Elle Girl
[x] Teen Vogue
[x] People
[x] Us Weekly
[x] Star
[ ] Self
[ ] PerezHilton.com
[ ] Dlisted.com
[ ] 17online.com
[ ] people.com
[x] usmagazine.com
[ ] popsugar.com
[ ]livejournal.com/community/ohnotheydidnt
[x] Pink Is The New Blog.com
[ ] cleo
Total So Far : 45

What I can say: I definitely love magazines!.. Blame it all on my tita.. before I was contented with candy, seventeen and pink.. but when I stayed at my tita's house during the vacation.. she has like a million magazines!.. well I read Star and weekly on my dentist's office.. he also loves magazines..

Have you seen these:
[x] Legally Blonde
[x] Elizabethtown
[x] Mean Girls
[x] Now & Then
[x] The Notebook
[x] A Walk to Remember
[x] Sweet Home Alabama
[ ] Where the Heart is
[x] Just my luck
[x] John Tucker Must Die
[ ] Centerstage
[x] Bring it On
[x] How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
[x] Mona Lisa Smile
[x] My Girl
Total : 56

What I can say: Movie buff!.. period!..

Are you Addicted to...
[ ] LOST
[x] America's
Next Top Model
[x] Project Runway
[ ] Desperate Housewives
[x] The Simple Life
[ ] 8th & Ocean
[x] Sex & the City
[x] Grey's Anatomy
[x] The O.C.
[x] Laguna Beach/The Hills
[] Nip/Tuck
[x] Gilmore Girls
TOTAL So Far: 65
What I can say: I'm not exactly addicted to that shows.. I just love watching them.. I learn so much more from these shows.. worth my every minute..
MULTIPLY UR ANSWER BY 2 YOUR___% BARBIE

-- 135%!..true blue Barbie girl! --

SUMMER NA!

2007-04-21T05:04:00.000-07:00

-- Batangas -- I spent my vacation mostly here. My Ninang just got back and asked my family to stay there for about 3 weeks. Right after the recognition on March 31, we headed home and packed for our things. We finished packing around 1:30 in the morning then we headed to Batangas because we'll be having a swimming at Los Baños and we need to meet up with our relatives. We got there at around 4 am in the morning. I slept for couple of hours while my mom and dad just helped in the preparations.

-- Los Baños -- First swimming. Private pool not beach but s'okay. They have awesome slides! And huzzah for 5 bathrooms! I didn't need to line up long to have my turn. We have a larrrgggeee family I tell you!

-- Laiya -- Our forever favorite gateway! Aquatico baby! Yeah, a bit expensive but it's all worth it. I wanna go kayaking again. And well, snorkeling too! Awesome, awesome week!

-- Tagaytay-slash- Greenbelt -- Went to Tagaytay today because of cousins' impulsiveness. We just went there to enjoy the view and well for my cousins' to have their dose of freaking Starbucks! Shizzzuuusss. And well what do you know, I slept for a while and when I wake up we're on Greenbelt. Being the only minor on the group, I have no say whatsoever. But yeah! Shopping! It energized me a bit though felt a little bad for my credit card. Mommy, it's an urgent matter. It's considered an emergency right? :)

**..what I'm totally loving this summer..**

1. crunchyroll -- Free streaming baby!

2. corn-flavored ice cream -- My weird craving for a corn ice cream.

3. halu-halo -- Razons is nowhere in sight so we always call Chowking! Yummy!

4. billiards -- I tried and failed. But yes, I still love it.

5. basketball -- Tried doing some hoops just because I'm here in Batangas and my Lola's place happens to have a mini-court near the garage!

6. Oguri Shun, Matsumo Jun, Vanness Wu -- aka MY BOYS OF SUMMER <33.

Vanness Wu of Peach Girl and Star Runner

Oguri Shun as Hanazawa Rui in Hana yori dango

Jun Matsumo as Domyouji Tsukasa in Hana Yori Dango

MAM!..

2006-12-04T06:19:00.001-08:00

MAM – Musical Adaptation of a Movie was a blast. We didn’t win but our efforts were appreciated. We composed our own songs, mind you. But oh well, that’s life. 4th year won, they deserved it.

I wasn’t supposed to perform because I twisted my ankle in Paula’s house. But the show must go on. So I still preformed semi-limping. People said it was okay and I looked cute. I think they’re being sarcastic.
But they say it was my clothes. I should look like a Jew but I looked like a PCD member Jew style. Okay that was so WTF.

I won in the short story writing! Can you believe it? The story that I was telling before. I was really shocked. A first year just told me that Sir Navarro is looking for me and I need to go to the AVR. I didn’t know, I was about to receive the award. HOHOHO :)

friendship.

2006-11-24T05:44:00.000-08:00

I feel that a part of my friends is changing. Slowly changing. There's somewhat an invisible wall that’s between us. They’ve become mean and irresponsible. I feel bad for leaving them behind. But that’s how it is.

week.

2006-11-17T02:38:00.000-08:00

My week was oh-kay. Here are the highlights.

1. I won in the press con. 2nd place. Baby!
2. We are being scolded by the teachers everyday. It’s the Neon-Helium combined curse.
3. Scored hella bad in my Math test. Goodbye Cal Sci.
4. Our new teacher in Stat made quite an impression to us. Bad that is.
5. I love E-aji na.
6. I texted a close friend after quite a long time. I felt guilty not replying to him when he was wasting his load on me.
7. Devil wears Prada is love. Nice clothes.
8. Figures of speech loco.
9. Watched Schindler’s list. It was sad.

disaster

2006-11-10T03:51:00.000-08:00

One of the craziest day evarr. I just found out that I was included in the short story writing. All the year levels were prepared about what to write. The theme and all. I was informed on the spot. Thanks, classmates.

I didn’t know what to write. So I just wrote a love story. The title is Beautiful disaster. The story of a girl who is blind and a boy who is a cancer patient that fell in love w/ each other. The boy always visits the girl and the first time the girl visited the boy’s house is also the last day of the boy’s life. That’s sad. I’m emo like that yo.

learn.

2006-11-01T02:43:00.000-08:00

I missed my bloggie. So many things happened. The last was the cultural night. Thank you Arci, Paula, Ran and Phen. Thank you for barging into his house and bringing him. He looks half confused and half nervous. I can’t say that I did or didn’t enjoy it. There was no exchange of words between us. We just sat there side by side and occasionally glancing at each other. That was it.

I realized a lot of things.

- GET REAL

- Don't LIE

- The hardest thing to do is to pretend

- To be happy you should not do what you like but like what you do.

- Chances come and go

- Never give up on the things that makes you smile

- Villains are always included in a story

- BE YOURSELF!

hayyyy.

2006-08-12T19:59:00.000-07:00

Two months is enough for me to realize my stupidity and move on. Thank you friends for coping up with me. Maybe it’s not yet time. As simple as that.

As regards to my acads, we feel pressured. Our whole batch. We felt isolated. But we don’t need people’s pity. We can stand on our own.

demure? NOT.

2006-06-23T04:35:00.000-07:00

Shucks, I’m so stupid. I cannot believe this. Curse my pa-demure effect and my stupid assumptions. Your sister’s words still rings in my head, you know that? It sucks that we have different schools. I miss you as much as you miss me. Memories will continue to hunt me down.

mixed emotions.

2006-06-22T06:57:00.000-07:00

Fine I admit, I’m irritated. You didn’t come today. I saw this coming. I wasted my chance yesterday. I feel mixed emotions.

One happy, I realized that you really wanted to talk to me after all. I thought that our friends just dragged you upstairs to talk to me. Heck, drag? That’s on the third floor. Dragging you up there would be impossible.

Paula: Drag? Ano ka ba. Free will yun no. Tapos nahiya nung nasa taas na.
Macie: Duh! Baka si timer lang hinahanap nun no.
Paula: Duh! Alam niya kaya na wala si Timer.

Another remorseful. I wasted an opportunity. My head was really on with the “dragging thing”. And you kind of look like you’re avoiding me when you were there. You and your shyness.

Third, I feel excited. You will be going tomorrow. Finally.

Rachel: Ayan na, nag-usap na ba kayo?
Boy: Hindi nga eh. Promise talaga, next time.

And lastly sad. Sad because your first love is celebrating her birthday on Saturday. Will you go tomorrow to give her a gift or talk to me? Oh yes, I’m jealous. I know she’s the semi- third party. Not really but whatever. You know, I think it’s stupid. Everything is. My pride, your pride and just the whole fiasco. I'm sorry that I wasn't really able to make you feel speacial. I'm always going to be the cold-hearted girlfriend.

Why did I blew it off?

2006-06-21T08:03:00.000-07:00

I blew it for the second time. Metric was there. I got the feeling that he wanted to talk to me but I gave him the attitude. I greeted him and my friends said that my tone was more of sarcastic (in front of him!). My friends were setting us up, all I have to do is go talk to him and end things the better way. But I was being bitchy and said that there’s no need to talk over things, we’re okay. He just said that you’ll come back tomorrow.

Boy: Tama na yan. Babalik pa naman ako bukas.

Well, lucky me. I find it sweet that he still looks at me like that. You thought I didn’t see right? You asked Maroe to teach you the new song but we kept glancing at each other (and yes I admit, I was too) that you didn’t even understand what Maroe was saying. Maroe ended up talking to himself. Sorry Maroe! The sad part is you still have the same effect on me. The glancing thing makes my heart melt. You look super cute when you do that. GAH :|

not sad.

2006-06-04T03:59:00.000-07:00

I’m not broken hearted, I’m happy. My previous post was to release my anger? Frustrations? Regrets? I honestly don’t know. I don’t know what exactly it is but it’s not sadness. I’m happy now. Everything’s not perfect but it’s where it should be.

my unsent message.

2006-06-03T04:41:00.000-07:00

I feel guilty for not calling, for not visiting, for not talking, for not even letting you feel that i exist on your special day. You may not be able to read this but at least by writing this I’m able to express my regrets. I know that it’s my fault. I acted like it’s an ordinary day but the truth is I was super anticipating that day. But you know what? Maybe I just didn't have the guts to face you. I don't wanna embarass myself or you. I just wanted this to be like this. I may not be able to choose the perfect words but I just want you to know na I really regret it. You may not believe it but that's the truth. Naman oh! kaw kasi eh, asar ka. You wanna know why I didn't come? Because I don't want to hear it from any of your friends. I want it to hear from you. Naman eh! Napakainsensitive mo! Hindi mo pa inapprove ung testi ko! Ewan ko sayo. I just want you to know na I'm happy basta happy. Hope you’re happy too. Take care. God bless. I still do. I kept my promise. And if you’re stupid enough to forget it, it’s not my fault.

Senti moments.

2006-05-17T02:34:00.000-07:00

Why can't you have everything that you've always wanted? I've always wanted a happy ending pero I think I will never have one na or maybe matatagalan pa. Why is it na minsan kahit super namimisss mo yung person, pag andyan na siya, wala na. Nagkakahiyaan na. Parang natiis mo pa siya kaysa isantabi ung pride mo. Then pag wala na saka mo lang marearealize na sayang yung chance.

Ang ganda ng burn ni usher. Really love is complicated. Ayaw mong magkahiwalay kayo kaya lang you just have to let go..." i know this is something i gotta do.. but that don't mean i want to.. what i'm trying to say is that i-love-you.. i just i feel like this is coming to an end.. and its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you.. i gotta let it burn ".. I super love that line. It doesn't mean na you no longer love the person. You just feel na it will not work out anymore between you two so you just let go than continue to hurt each other. And if you're truly meant to be, love will be the one who'll find the way.

If you're not the one.

2006-04-21T01:00:00.000-07:00

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call?
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it,I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it,I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it,I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?